But we aren't successful, well actually it's my fault. I often call her or even send message to her because I was tooooooooo busy with my studies and other things. At first I really thought that calling your love is not that big deal not until I read a comment in a forum somewhere that she really felt she is immportant to his boyfriend and she felt she is valued by him when her love call her. Oh well, it is my fault and I accept that.  About the question does first love never dies? my answer would be, base on what I feel this time, YES. I still love her, I still want to correct my mistakes and I still want to grow old with her but she said she does not want to and she does not love me anymore. I respect her decision because it is hard to love someone who can not love you back, right? She also said I shoud just move on. It is what I' am doing now. Isn't it obvious? lolz.  I just hope she could find the person who will not do bad things to her like what I did. If ever you will read this I' am sorry and thank you for everything you have done. You do not know how much I treasured it.